There was a request over on S48 to translate a long Instagram post from AKB48 Team 4 member Ma Chia-Ling (馬嘉伶). I follow her, but I had missed this one myself.
Macharin is one of the first idols I started following on Showroom, in large part because at the time her Japanese was fairly poor, so her slow, simple speech was just about at my comprehension level. Her time in Japan has accelerated her fluency far beyond my capacity, but I still follow her and admire her hard work.
She’s the definitive outsider of the domestic 48 groups, and has talked a bit about her struggles to be accepted, and to succeed in what is already a super competitive industry.
This post is about her decision to end her “every day” Showroom stream streak, and focus on other aspects of her idol work. Apparently it’s been an emotional decision, but I’m hopeful she will be able to convert some of that time into advancing her career without losing her fan base.
I’m not sure how her pet name for her fans, あずき, is usually translated, so I hope they like being sweet beans.
macyacyarin 🍵 #20190724 . A bit ago I was included in the "Surpassing 1000 Broadcasts" announcement... Today I will be ending these "every day streams" that have continued in an unbroken streak for the last two and a half years . . About 5/7th's of my idol life has been spent on these every day Showroom streams interacting with people that are supporting me having all these people getting to know the true me and, because of Showroom, I've received many important opportunities really, truly, it's thanks to you I was able to enjoy every day . . All along, I wanted this kind of life to continue . But gradually I came to realize... I was totally forcing all my sweet beans to humor me With you sweet beans I felt so at ease... I persisted with these broadcasts because it makes me feel you all are always so close by and unconsciously I came to depend on it . . But since I'm not an obsessive person I'm someone that's always thinking about what is good, what I like I wondered if being able to meet everyday gives my sweet beans happiness Because I also want to see all my sweet beans If you notice I've been doing these every day Showroom broadcasts for about two and a half years . However I must change my current lifestyle I decided I was wondering if I couldn't improve further But in no way do I mean to imply I can't do other things I want to do because I'm doing these broadcasts I'm not giving up what I've been involved in up to now I think I'm wondering if I'll just continue on with this simple existence Moreover, and it's been a while since I realized this, I definitely have a personality where I can't let go of things So the broadcasts still continued on . I was thinking that well, as it is, I've been a brat all along Ah, the whole time like a spoiled child... . One day last week all of the sudden, I thought, "All right, let's push on ahead!" I was surprised by my own feelings despite usually being someone that can't give up anything... As for the timing, it's not like, "I'm stopping because I achieved the 1000 broadcasts!" It's just that all of the sudden I thought, I'm going to make a change A momentary sentiment, that ends something that's been going on for two and a half years it really doesn't seem like something I'd do . If today wasn't when I surpassed 1000 broadcasts but just a normal stream maybe it would have put an end to the consecutive broadcasts Ahh~ that really wouldn't be like me, right? lol . . When I tried to put together the 1000-piece puzzle it took me 16 hours So suppose, if one piece is like one day with more than 1000 streams, I realized what an amazing thing this was Since every day was so much fun, I didn't think it was at all difficult . . Deciding to stop being a "every day" idol, of course there are uneasy feelings. Well, for everyone that was seeing me every day, if the chance to meet "every day" disappears, I wonder if the distance between us will gradually grow wider... And for me an important part of my life gone, I'm lonely just thinking about it Since I'll be lonely tomorrow, maybe I'll still do a stream lol However a broadcast can be done anytime, by anyone Right now I want to concentrate more on idol work things like the upcoming nation-wide tour and the October Taiwan concert I'll do my best with the things that can only be done now I want those that support me to think, "Macharin really has grown up" . Also up to now I've been updating Twitter and Instagram every day, but maybe I won't be posting every day (but I'll absolutely send a mobame every day!!) Even after this string of daily streams is over I want my relationship with my sweet beans to remain unchanged I'll be happy if all my sweet beans will watch over me from now on . Of course even though my "every day idol" Showrooms are ending Macharin's life as an AKB48 idol will continue for some time ✨ All my sweet beans please certainly rest assured of that 😂💜 And so even if the every day idol is finished please stay by my side
1 Comment
Ma Chia-Ling’s August 7 Instagram Post – SaitoWinterStar · August 20, 2019 at 3:01 am
[…] I’m not going to gush over Macharin again here like in the other Instagram post I translated. However, I will say there’s an interesting feeling translating her writing. […]